I wanted to have this posted yesterday, but as I started typing it out, I realized I was monotonically just typing out what I did that day. I didn’t go into my feelings are what I gained from it. So I’m posting it today just so I could sit on my thoughts about my day without social media.
In all honesty, it wasn’t what I was hoping for. That may sound a little entitled or spoiled, but I think what I’m trying to say is I probably could have been better at how my day played out. I’ll start from the beginning.
The day started out great. I got up nice and early, meditated for 15 minutes, did an hour of candlelit yoga, made a cup of chai tea, and got to work on blogging. Almost immediately following were a couple curve balls from the universe, one of them being the accidental deletion of the entire blog post I had just typed up and the other being something that I don’t care to go into detail about as it would take a lot of extra explaining and I’d just rather not. Either way, my speed bumps combined were big enough to throw me into a funk and I was awful at recovering from it until I finally made myself go for a run and do my leg day. Yes I felt much better after that but I had half a list of things that I had wanted to do for this day. Not things I HAD to do, things I wanted to do. I really wanted it to be a day of self love and taking care of myself and instead I let my emotions get the best of me and spent most of the day fixing my baditude.
I understand the lesson in this, I do. The lesson being that sometimes the universe doesn’t give us what we expected, but what we needed. In this case, it was brought to my attention how I need to get better at this whole letting go thing. And maybe start planning my days out a little better.
There were bright sides from this for sure. There were only a couple times that I struggled with avoiding social media and that was during down time and and moments of stress. Which really is like another lesson… instead of turning to social media and getting distracted from the task at hand, I need to start taking a different approach. Maybe focusing on my breathing or meditating for a few minutes? anyway, I digress. I kinda liked a day without social media. For me, social media is my bad habit. Since moving to California it’s gotten worse because I don’t know anyone here and when a place doesn’t feel like your permanent home, you’re not as willing to go out and make friends so I turned to facebook and instagram to make up for my extreme lack in social interactions. The great thing about my social media free day was that it let me see just how much I truly need social media… it’s not much. It was pretty nice being so present in the real world. I’ll definitely be doing social media free days more often. I don’t want to completely take it out (hello, traveller here who wants to keep in touch) but I’m happy to start reducing it. A day free of it was in truth freeing myself. I want more of that.
My plan is to have another one of these days. Soon. But without dwelling on petty situations. And with less technology and less chores. I want this day to not have plans. I want this day to involve pampering myself with a warm lavender bath, massage, reading, journaling, being out in nature and going on adventures with my love. I want to completely disconnect from technology. No emails, no blogging, no social media, no movies or videos. I can’t remember the last time I had a day like that. Maybe my childhood? I believe I’m overdue.
The great part about this realization is the timing. In exactly 30 days, we’ll be leaving this crazy place we’ve called home for the past year. We’ll pack up our car and head North. The first 2 days and 2 nights will be spent in the overwhelmingly beautiful Big Sur. By far my most favorite part of California. I won’t be getting my warm lavender bath, but we’ll be disconnected from technology and connected with each other. We’ll be hiking and exploring and enjoying each other’s one-on-one company in nature. That’s only the very beginning of our epic adventure. And I’m so ready
I am free, no matter what rules surround me. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for every thing I do. ~ Robert A. Heinlein